Nic says day dreams are how we learn from life’s lessons. She could be right.
Two night ago, Nic described how she met this ball of negative energy dude at a party once, and that he was the only person ever that had fully managed to deflate her joy bunny personality.
Then last night in my dreams I was unfortunately reliving my past lives, with Joanne featuring heavily. It was bloody painful having to go back through this particular ball of negative energy.
Circular, painful, tedious and hostile. I woke up in a sweat.
But immediately I understood the message. My big mistake then was putting up with this shit. I should have walked, very early on. By hanging around I was being a complete victim.
It started with Margery, then Heidi, then Joanne and finally Kate.
The purpose of the dream was to tell Lola. My brain is telling me that she might get the same curse. Fear mixed with sympathy that ends up crucifying the possessor by proxy.
The fucked up individuals, they find you, then they suck the blood out of you. If you can escape with your life, you’re lucky.
