Divorce

To be honest, I’m very disappointed that Nicola didn’t trust me enough to manage my divorce in a way that suited me.

There’s so many variables that’s it’s too hard to gather them all up and make a sensible argument.

I appreciate being pushed, up to a point. But after a point the effort actually hurt me. I have to deal with the interior of my head, no else does.

I guess she just wants me to be open and discuss things, and then I might learn something new, as has happened in the past.

But on this issue my very self is on the line. I know this because of the frightening dreams. I can’t be content and simultaneously hurt others, even at the risk of being used from beyond the grave.

It’s about me, not them. My wiring is thus limiting. I’ve done what I can to re-program it. I’m not sure how much further I can get without destroying my soul.

Besides, the only feasible argument for intervention is that I’ll be happier if she is. All else is fraught. But that’s a shit argument.